Wordsmith Holler

Original Pulp Fiction

Category: Scribbles

  • Regret: Scribble, Feb. 9, 2018

    Sometimes you look back and realize that things were not too bad back when you had hair and weighed 100 pounds less. Of course, there was less to worry about too. More time to relax.

    There are the might have beens to consider too. Like, what might have been if I had just saved money instead of spending it on records? Or what might have been if I had turned down my second job and just stayed in Idaho? Of course, what might have been if I had not taken the job?

    I regret not being a better son or brother. I regret some of the things I said. I regret not saying some things.

    Doubt doesn’t really creep up in these thoughts. Honestly, I would change only a few things. I would like to get back the wasted years between 2008 and 2015 when the economy tanked and my plans were tossed out the window. I regret that investment at the top instead of the bottom. I regret the struggles, the confusion, and the worry. At the time they seemed like good decisions. So, there’s no doubt.

    I still want to have it all. I regret that not everyone agrees.

    Mostly, I regret nothing.

     

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  • Dallas 3 a.m.

    On Oct 1, I woke in Dallas at 3 a.m. before my flight back to Las Vegas. Picking the morning flight over the red eye became a battle of trying to sleep in a too soft bed with a thin pillow. I might have slept better on the overnight. I should have just stayed awake and pretended I was 20 again.

    I hit stop on the phone alarm and saw a long line of alerts. In the dark, the light of the phone let me know, “20 dead in Las Vegas. More than 200 wounded.”

    It was 1 a.m. in Vegas; it had just happened.

    For years, I feared hearing a mass shooting in my city. Too many tourists; too many opportunities. It seemed very real.

    I spent the weekend with Katie in north Texas. A fan of country, she would have been at the concert. Thankfully, she was in bed in Denton.

    Matthew tried to get tickets to the Route 91 Concert on Saturday. He texted to say he had couldn’t get tickets. That left my son Albert. My phone showed he walked into the house at 10:06 p.m.; two minutes before the mass murder.

    I sat in the dark and thought how lucky we were. None of our kids were there. Relief and then horror as an alert put the death toll over 50.

    We landed in Las Vegas after 7 a.m. Curtains flowed out of two windows at the Mandalay Bay. The Strip was closed so we took Maryland Parkway to work. It felt like the wind had taken the heart out of Las Vegas.

    A Justice tried to give blood but the line was 3 hours deep and she had to come back to hear oral arguments. She never was able to give blood.

    Albert woke up confused. He read my text, “Are you okay?” He looked out the window. A bus went by so he figured everything was okay. Then he Googled Las Vegas and saw the news. “Oh, that’s why they texted.”

    He went out and bought six cases of water to take to the first responders. It seemed like all he could do. He talked to a few of them. Everyone was feeling grief. Not too many people wanted to talk about what had happened.

    He kept pausing the news to ask us questions. “Why did he do it?” “I can’t believe he did it.” “Do you think he cared?”

    I didn’t know what to say. I had the same questions.

    I donated some money to the Vegas Shooting Fund. By the end of the week, it totaled more than $10 million.

    Most of the victims were from California. Of my friends, at least 12 knew somebody shot or killed. A large number of people were from my hometown of Bishop. One little town of 4,000 people and so many people were at the concert.

    Las Vegas gets a bad reputation as a place no one calls home. Nearly 50 million people visit every year.

    But on the first day, United Blood Services collected more than 600 pints of blood; they are lucky to collect 100 pints a day. As people stood in line, businesses brought sandwiches, water, pizza, cake, umbrellas, and chairs. Everyone wanted to help. Our community showed through.

    By the end of the week, you could find #VegasStrong on most of social media accounts and billboards around the city.

    The mass murder stung us. But it didn’t stop us from being people who care.

    I’m still numb to the whole event. I would give anything to wake up in Dallas at 3 a.m. to see nothing on my phone.

     

     

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  • Scribble, June 19, 2017

    Finished a walk at 7:30 this morning and the temperature already reached 93 and will reach 114 this evening. Already hot and oppressive. A Raver asked me for some change; I wore new pants. The Electric Daisy Concert ended with girls dropped off in front of the courthouse wearing satin exercise shorts or bikinis. A few went straight to the ATM by the Palm Stars. One asked me for change.

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    I nearly passed out in the garden Sunday. I think it was already 105 by that point. Sitting in the shade, the sun seemed so bright. I wonder if miners crossing Death Valley just saw a bright light, and then, poop dead?

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    A serious funk obviously brought on by summer. The only thing to do in this heat is siesta.

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    Reality check: At least I’m not 6,000 miles from home wearing 100 pounds of gear and laced up boots in 120-degree heat. I’ll just sit here in the air conditioning and get over myself.

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    Read this weekend my favorite song off the Joshua Tree album tells the story of a couple on heroin planning a big score. I just saw it as a woman realizing she had to move on from an abusive relationship. The heroin story seems more authentic. There is always two sides to a story.

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    Everyone forgets the big picture. A van plows over people walking across the London Bridge. It is Extremist Islamic terrorism. A van plows over Muslims exiting a mosque. It is Islamophobia. Could it be a sick mind exacting revenge for the terrorism the month before? Even I’m doing it; no one wants to call Extremist Islamic Terrorism a reason to fuel hate. The two events are not isolated. The whole thing is a systemic wound.

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    The cream tastes sweet on my tongue and I long for the days of warm cookies from the oven and naps.

     

     

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  • Scribble, June 07, 2017

    Been off taking care of other things and not writing. I missed the keyboard! I thought it would be a good idea to sit down and type. Fair warning: none of this may interest you.

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    We take the idea of completing our chores, interests, obligations, and everyday tasks for granted. Like they will never end. And then they do. What have we accomplished? And does it matter? Just some of my thoughts this week.

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    The temperature reached 102 Tuesday, yet the weatherman said it only felt like 96. Meanwhile in west Texas, it reached 89 but felt like 91. A balance of humidity, I guess. It really can be a dry heat in Las Vegas.

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    Somehow through incompetence or brain death I managed to let one of my domains expire. I probably intended to walk away from it. So now, the new owner wants $5,000 to start the bidding on getting it back to me. I think I’ll pass. Hopefully, someone will find it useful.

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    By the airport someone has put up a billboard with only clouds on it. I wonder what the metaphor means? Cloud services? It’s better up here? Fly the cloudy skies? I suppose more information is forthcoming. And since I don’t plan a trip anytime soon, I probably will never know the answer.

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    The ancestry.com app works like a dream. I’ve been adding information like a wild man. Of course, just when you are on a roll, the company tries to sell you something it gave you minutes ago for a different ancestor. Pretty clever. I, of course, am not paying. I have ways of getting the information out of the app for free. I know nothing!

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    It’s easy to get sucked into ancestry.com and not write.

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    What would you do if all of the knowledge you needed to complete a complex task was on a flash drive, but you had no way to retrieve the files? Let’s assume you’re in space floating toward a new planet and there is no other way to fix the problem. Would you fix the flash drive or just sit around frustrated? I think this is how Daniels must have felt when David/Walter locked her in the hyperbolic chamber to sleep while he hatched the new aliens.

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    A BLT with avocado and and egg. Different.

     

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  • Scribble, May 16, 2017

    Scribble, May 16, 2017

    I toured the Edgar Allan Poe House and Museum and left thinking Poe hit his head a lot and this caused melancholia and stress. Seriously, if a guy standing 5’10” fails to avoid the door head, and then hits his own head, I must surmise The Raven came out of this constant impact on Poe’s noggin. And let’s not forget the stairs; narrower, and narrower, they squeezed as I climbed close enough to hear my heartbeat. I enjoyed myself.

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    My wanderings through Washington, D.C. also took my to the Library of Congress where I received a library card. This probably was the best souvenir of the trip. I can now wander around the stacks and read books from the library’s shelves.

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    I worked out some plotting for my short story, He Speaks in Moonlight, which was a good thing. I also thought about The Farmer’s Cop, even figuring out how to move the setting away from downtown Los Angeles.

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    I returned to a water bottle smelling much like dirty sweat socks.

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    A SPACE.com Onesignal popped up telling me the God’s Particle probably isn’t what I think it is. Must click on link!

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    Interesting. So, in all fairness the teaser caused me to ponder the beginning of the universe and I figured the article would tell me where to find God. Fire up the rocket ship; we’re headed for the Eagle Nebula! The article ended up telling me the mass of an electron is the interaction between an electron and the Higgs boson field. All this time I thought the Higgs boson created mass. Good thing I clicked. (Hat tip to the tease writer).

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    A group of hackers in Kuala Lumpur continue to try to breach the firewall using weird logins. They clearly misplaced the memo on how to make money hacking websites. (This will probably spur them on.) Anyway, I keep blocking them in the hopes they will run out of IP numbers. If this website becomes a black screen with a red skull and crossbones, call Elliot Alderson.

     

     

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  • Scribble, May 1, 2017

    Another rejection arrived in the email. Of course, writing is not something I jumped into because it would make me rich and famous. Well, perhaps famous. But I never had the idea my writing would generate an income. I write because I feel like it.

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    A Conversation

    “I saw these buildings as more pumpkin-like.”

    “They are orange.”

    “Yes, but they are square. You called it the pumpkin patch.”

    “Well, yeah.”

    “I saw buildings a bit more rounded with green roofs.”

    “True, they are not very pumpkin-like.”

    “Then why call it the pumpkin patch?”

    “So people know how to find us.”

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  • Scribble, April 28, 2017

    I tossed Snoopy off the edge. He went flying out in the darkness on top of his dog house like the World War I Flying Ace. He continued to pound out the latest Once Upon a Time on his typewriter seemingly unconcerned about the pending thwack on the floor. Of course, I ran around the desk to scrutinize the fall. He had one missing paw and the calendar blocks scattered around him. The dog nearly decapitated in the crash. I’m off to Hallmark to find a replacement desk calendar; one with Snoopy, in one piece, tapping away on the keys.

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    Spring has sprung and summer is edging closer. After crossing in front of the federal building, the sun already seemed to burn my scalp. The bald spot felt exposed. I suppose it could be worse; I could be walking across a field of frozen snow wondering when the sun will warm up enough to melt it all.

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    Lavender flowers now wilted
    The hose twisted kinked
    The gardener saves the plant
    With water from his flask
    A swallow tumbles over stalk
    Greedily gathered in dust
    The flower recovers its shine.

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    A Conversation

    “Why do you want this job?”

    “For the challenge and to make a difference.”

    “And you think you’re that person?”

    “I enjoy new experiences.”

    “What makes you think we want you?”

    “My reputation drew your interest? I’m a team player? I want to explore new methods and ideas?”

    “Are you asking the questions now?”

    “I’m just trying to make a good impression.”

    “We may call you later.”

    ***

    The muse speaks in my ear whispering ideas, challenges, and dreams. Sometimes she demands I write. Other times, she sits on my shoulder just whispering variations on the same theme. Writers block never seems to affect her. Although, she does get a bit testy when I ignore her.

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    Inspiration is our quill of various arrows gathered for the eventual fight. I don’t think any experience goes to waste. Even the obstacles and failures can lead to a good story. Bad ill strengthens our character as much as goodwill. The magic comes in realizing every experience builds the writer’s arsenal and allows him to write characters with life.

     

     

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  • Scribble, April 26, 2017

    I’ve been listening to writing podcasts lately. The ones I really like are Seated at the Writer’s Table and Helping Writers Become Authors. These podcasts offer advice on writing and selling. Good stuff. For fun, I like The Disney Story Origins Podcast, Myths and Legends, and Rabbits.

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    I created a Patreon page as a way to keep myself on track toward my bigger writing projects. One of the first things I have learned about myself is I don’t do very well if I don’t have accountability partners. Believe it or not, I need someone to support me. I know, strange stuff coming from a creative person. Anyway, I plan to keep supporters posted on my progress of writing The Farmers Cop, a cozy mystery I have been thinking about but not writing. I appreciate anyone who wants to learn with me or follow my progress.

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    Bill O’Reilly received a $25 million dollar exit package to start a podcast. I wish I had that kind of money to support my creative juices.

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    Hackers from China, Russia, India, Malaysia, Brazil, and United Kingdom are causing me problems on one of the websites I manage. Where do these idiots come from? And all using stupid logins in their attempts to get into the site. I must be on some kind of stupid-person mailing list. United Kingdom, really?

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    At my bagel breakfast place, I managed to sit next to a guy who spent the next 20-minutes preaching about how the Fibonacci code and sound vibrations prove the existence of miracles. He was really loud and kept interrupting; one of those “listen to me” guys. I eavesdropped because I like paranormal. However, everyone started looking our way because he was so loud. I was grateful when the little league team sat down between us, giggling with horseplay, while covered in cream cheese.

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    A television station in Alaska now powers the evening newscast with citizen journalists. I wonder how this will turn out? In my experience citizen journalists are a fickle lot. And writers are rapidly becoming tired of doing everything for free. So how do you convince creators to keep on creating for the local newscast if they are never paid? And how to do you keep the same people from talking for more than two minutes each night about their toenail fungus? I don’t see this lasting too long. Sure, the station saves money by not employing journalists, but the local furniture shop will not advertise on a show that only features toenail fungus updates. Or, maybe they will.

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    There are two sides to every story with opponents and advocates each having  their viewpoints. So why do we spend all of our time looking for just one side of the story? News reporters irritate me sometimes. And they never see the whole picture. Take umbrage at a story and they defend it. No, we’re trying to get you to look at the other side. All of the grammar and the punctuation was there; we need the other side too.

     

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  • Scribble April 17, 2017

    “You had me at the lede.” In my past, a story would jump off the page and I immediately knew I wanted to read it. Today, the story often assumes I already care. Where is the passion? Why does the lede seem to fall flat? I’m finally figuring out why I no longer eagerly anticipate the newspaper; none of the ledes grab me.

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    A Conversation

    “There’s blood on the sidewalk.”

    “A homeless guy got beat up.”

    “Shouldn’t that be washed off?”

    “Probably.”

    “Do we have anyone who cleans it up?”

    “He comes on Fridays.”

    “It’s been there two weeks.”

    “He must have taken the week off.”

    “It should be cleaned up. Should we call him?”

    “I was on vacation last week.”

    “But it looks bad.”

    “I can’t be here for everything.”

    “Listen, are we going to have to have a fight?”

    “There’s no need to get hostile.”

    “Keep it up and there’s going to be more blood on the sidewalk.”

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    Notes from a webinar on plotting a story

    Plotting Mnemonic (Annie Lamott)

    • Action
    • Background
    • Conflict
    • Development
    • End
      • Crisis
      • Climax
      • Consequences

    Needed Items

    • If you plot feels too thin, it does not need more events or back story or characters – it needs layers and complexity.
    • Every chapter and scene must keep things changing for your character.
    • What does the character want? Who or what is keeping them from it?
    • Exploit character flaws and physical obstacles.
    • The stakes must increase for your character – the goal must be solved at all costs.
    • Your character must have a clear, consistent motivation. The goal should be clear early on in your novel – even though the way the goal looks can change.
    • Describe the story you plan to write in one sentence.
    • Characters must grow and learn. They must develop their external and internal goals and motivations.
    • Plot is about entertaining your readers.

    Parts

    • Beginning – This is where the main character makes a decision to act – because of something that’s happened, usually, which has created a goal
    • Middle – The action itself. Keep the reader turning the page. Have a structure plan to decide where action should take place and keep you focused on the plot, i.e. Three Act Structure. Keep the tension rising, with more obstacles and challenges or possibly twists – leading up to “All Is Lost”. Think about the “but” and “so” of the event or scene.
    • End – The climax. Resolve the main conflict of your main character. Ends come about because of the character’s actions. Look at the middle and make sure the end has an impact; make it memorable.

    Resources

    Plot and Structure – James Scott Bell

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  • Scribble April 13, 2017

    It feels like a Friday the Thirteenth.

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    Water bottle tossing should be an Olympic sport. No, not the 16-ounce bottles of plastic water. I’m talking about the five-gallon bottles men seem to be only able to wrestle to the water cooler. I used to body wrestle the bottle to the top of the cooler. But then, Sheldon taught me how to sling it in a single pass where it would land on the opening. A single Bocce-like underhanded sling using the full range of motion in your arm to lift the bottle onto the cooler. Stepping back from the cooler to watch a water-slinger is ballet crossed with golf.

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    Am I the only one to end up with tiny paper cuts on my tongue after eating a walnut?

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    United Airlines: a man was dragged off a plane resulting in a broken nose and reconstruction surgery; a man was threatened with arrest if he didn’t give up his fully paid first-class ticket for a “more important person”; and on a flight from Mexico to Canada a scorpion fell down from the overhead bin landing in a male passenger’s hair. When he brushed it away, it stung him. The Friendly Skies are not that friendly.

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    Driving through the construction of the Spaghetti Bowl, and the confusing mush of shoulder lines and lane lines, I thought of my Uncle Karl who claimed he suggested to the California Department of Transportation the idea of painting white shoulder lines to keep motorists on the road. This was in the 1930s, I think. I hate to imagine what it must have been like to drive without the shoulder lines. This morning, the drivers, including an 18-wheeler hauling cows, really couldn’t keep between the lines.

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    24 people are stuck on a roller coaster in Maryland. It says they are at a Six Flags but I figure United Airlines probably owns part of the Joker’s Jinx coaster.

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    Just now: a guy pushing a handcart was nearly run over by a city bus advertising a menopause play. This could be a whole story; just saying.

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    I swear to goodness: a second menopause bus just tried to take out the same guy. Definitely a story.

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    Paul Simon is a brilliant writer. Take his Cloudy:

    Cloudy
    My thoughts are scattered and they’re cloudy
    They have no borders, no boundaries
    They echo and they swell
    From Tolstoy to Tinker Bell
    Down from Berkeley to Carmel
    Got some pictures in my pocket and a lot of time to kill

    You can just see yourself on a bus going nowhere. I always jump to the two-lane road between Sonoma and San Francisco. The grape vine whipping by and the clouds coming up off the bay.

    These clouds stick to the sky
    Like floating question–why?
    And they linger there to die
    They don’t know where they’re going, and, my friend, neither do I
    Cloudy

    In a simple few lines, Simon captures a carefree moment. There is probably a deeper meaning; no matter. A simple day of doing nothing works for me.

     

    Read more: Scribble April 13, 2017