Sometimes you look back and realize that things were not too bad back when you had hair and weighed 100 pounds less. Of course, there was less to worry about too. More time to relax.
There are the might have beens to consider too. Like, what might have been if I had just saved money instead of spending it on records? Or what might have been if I had turned down my second job and just stayed in Idaho? Of course, what might have been if I had not taken the job?
I regret not being a better son or brother. I regret some of the things I said. I regret not saying some things.
Doubt doesn’t really creep up in these thoughts. Honestly, I would change only a few things. I would like to get back the wasted years between 2008 and 2015 when the economy tanked and my plans were tossed out the window. I regret that investment at the top instead of the bottom. I regret the struggles, the confusion, and the worry. At the time they seemed like good decisions. So, there’s no doubt.
I still want to have it all. I regret that not everyone agrees.
Mostly, I regret nothing.
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